Cassie blinked, looking up at Kyle, moving to sit up and give him her undivided attention- Kyle being serious was heavy enough as it was, but Cassie could almost make out a bead of sweat on him.
“Of course- you can tell me anything” She nodded. She felt her entire body waiver as Kyle talked- it was as if she had been plunged underwater, her ears blocked, voices floating and distant.
All this time, Cassie had wanted Kyle to love her back, and want her.
But now she had Gale, and she never had to worry about him, or worry about herself with him- the two had fun and he made her happy, happier then Kyle had even made her.
“I- Kyle…” She said softly, her voice sounding strange to her own ears.
“I’m flattered- i mean- i don’t know why- or how- i just. You mean a lot to me, you know? And i know with everything we’ve been through it’s been really straining. In times of shock and, surprise sometimes guys say what they think girls want to hear. Maybe you don’t- you know- love me, you’re just. Trying to deal with the shooting? I just- i mean, we’ll always be friends. I’m saying everything wrong here” Cassie sighed, pressing her palms to her eyes.
“I love you too- i just, not in that way. I’m sorry. I really, really like Gale. He’s good for me. Right now, at least. I just- i guess i don’t really know what to say- Kyle i’m sorry, i feel awful, i had no idea. If- if it’s better for you, you can move out, i completely understand- or if you want to like, punch me or something if i was leading you on. Oh god, i’m sorry.” Cassie added once more, desperately.
Kyle lifted his chin looking at Cassie, feeling slightly gutted but had already expected what she was going to say; instead of throwing a temper like he always did, he blinked softly, lowering his head, looking down at his shoes as he nodded showing Cassie how he understood her words completely. “I…I know,” he shrugged hopelessly, stuttering as he spoke but still place a soft smile on his face, “I figured that’s what you’ll say.” he chuckled, hoping Cassie couldn’t read how heartbroken he is.
He sighed, before he look up at Cassie again, licking his lips before he felt curious as to how Gale has been treating her to have her getting hooked onto him. “Gale must be really different, huh?” he asked, raising his eyebrows with his shoulders slightly raised too.
Why are you asking me this? Don’t you think she could better tell you the qualities I posses which appeal to her?
Just wanted to see if you were one of those who brags, but yeah, i’d be sure to ask her. I’m actually quite curious.
“I know.” She replied softly, “But summer was always my favourite. Bright and sunny. Stupid, i know, okay. Just sucks is all” Cassie did another one shouldered shrug.
“A talk show? What made you think of that?” Cassie laughed, giving Kyle a small look. “
“I call her Umbrella most of the time to be honest” Cassie admitted with a slow grin spreading on her face.
“Isa?” Cassie raised her eyebrows slightly, “Uh, no. Not really. I just think she’s going to try to get him to hate me, and i don’t want it to work”
Cassie frowned slightly at their hands, noticing the familiar brush of his thumb over her hand. He did that a lot when they had been dating.
“Uh- thanks” Cassie said, realising she had answered a bit too slowly. “Are you sure you’re okay?” She gave him an analysing look. Something just didn’t add up here.
“Was everything alright back at home? You didn’t get into a fight with your dad again did you?” She inquired gently.
Kyle cleared his throat, scratching his head as he closed an eye having the other to look at Cassie, “I kinda..need to tell you something,” he stated, feeling rather hot and heavy now that he realize how he was about to tell her his feelings for her for the millionth time. After thinking about it and now that Cassie was with Gale, things seemed a little more clearer now; Kyle could see his mistakes in their relationship - how he had been selfish as well as being too scared to finally let his walls down and accept the fact that he loves Cassie. Maybe if he did, the two wouldn’t have ended up with such a disastrous relationship, Kyle wouldn’t be in the state that he’s in and maybe Cassie would have still be with him.
“Cassie,” he paused, sighing as he licked his lips, “i know you’re with Gale, i know you two are happy and whatever most couples feel when they’re in the honey moon stage,” he blabbered, feeling more and more nervous, “Whatever i have to say now, doesn’t need matter. I just need to get it off my chest.”
“I love you,” he paused for a minute, wanting a response from Cassie but turned to look anywhere but Cassie in the eye just in case it wasn’t the kind of look he was expecting, “I love you, a lot. I’m sorry if i left you here alone and wandered off back to London; i was… i..i started to like you again, after living with you.”
Impressive. You should take that god given talent and run with it.
You know I was wondering how long we were going to engage in random chit chat before one of us brought her up. That was smooth of you. I’d say yes, but I feel like admitting to being a gentleman isn’t very gentlemanly. But yeah, I guess that’s the reason she is. Or at least one of them.
I guess you waited quite long enough then? At least one of them? Let’s be modest now, what are your other qualities?
I’m sorry, Ky. I didn’t know about Gale either, until recently…have you ever spoken to him?
If it’s any consolation, I like you much more than Gale.
Well, actually, I was thinking…remember when we lived together, that was fun, wasn’t it?…want to do it again?
Don’t be sorry, it’s not your fault, it’s mine. And yes, I spoken to him once, and i hate to admit it but he’s…actually much better than me. Much… i don’t know, caring? You know what’s going through my mind, don’t you? Seems like you and mom are the only two girls in my life who i can’t lie to.
Of course you have to like me; i’m your brother from another mother.
Don’t get me wrong, you’re more than welcome to stay with me, but it’s such a hassle to pack and unpack…and…what about Ty- …what happened, Kee?
And how drinking wine just makes you thirsty. The universe is full of mysteries.
How are you? Have you seen Cassie, yet?
It is; strange world we live in.
I’m uh…i’m good. and yes, actually. I heard what happened, as well as her being with Gale; quite a lot going on while i was gone, huh? How about you, Kee? Any changes in life that i don’t know of?
You should’ve. You’ve got some real talent here.
Thanks for the compliment, but my drawings are rubbish; unless you count stick men as art.
Now I can’t trust anything she says or does.
The same way how i feel when we live in a world where sometimes naps just make you more tired.